Putting this to rest!
mainly because i got a gmail and don't feel like logging in and out of two different google accounts. plus there's too many bad memories in this. find me elsewhere!

let me climb under your skin, oh let me in.

if the sea should swallow up my house, i will turn my rooftop inside out, and the wind will be wailing, but i will be sailing faster. oh the elements i do not fear, but i fall apart when you appear cause you are the greatest. the greatest disaster.

my heart is not in school semester, and i think it may have something to do with the fact that i'm sick to the point of tears almost every day. and when i'm not sick, i'm just exhausted from being sick. vicious cycles rule my life.

i switched my major to english, and of course i want to switch back to dance so bad. luckily if i choose to do so, or even if i choose to continue school, the credits i'm taking this semester will all carry over. i joined hip hop club, mainly because i want to get in shape and the club is before my jazz class on tuesdays and thursdays so it'll be like three hours of dancing those days. i'm also trying to go to ACDF in march. (american college dance festival). it's in virginia. four days of dance class.

i just wanna be a grown up already.

songs about california.

one of my besties is moving to san diego, TOMORROW, so i made him this mix:

1. california love - tupac and dr. dre.
2. california - phantom planet.
3. california - the adicts. (so punk).
4. the vast spoils of america - saves the day.
5. california one / youth and beauty brigade - the decemberists.
6. pictures of success - rilo kiley.
7. california dreamin' - the mamas and the papas.
8. atomic - tiger army.
9. california - the kooks.
10. californication - the red hot chili peppers.
11. california - copeland.
12. california - rufus wainwright.
13. a long december - the counting crows.
14. hotel california - the eagles.
15. pacific theme - broken social scene.
16. california girls - the beach boys.

André Kertész.

but me, i'm probably having an ugly day because my words were so ugly last night.

i want to be really skinny and quit school and fuck it, whatever.

will we find a seat out by the water? a tipping glass, pretending that we're free? will the tides come up to greet us, act as summer, say hello? if it's up to me, i'd never let you leave. i'm so tired, so lay down.

my cheeks red like fire engines racing straight to the heat of your skin and i know our days are numbered, early bird of the summer, you'll fly south just as the fall begins.