worth loving, worth loving, worth loving.
but i had that. i had never been so sure of anything before. not only did i wait for two years, but i invested three. not only did i wait for two years and invest three, but i stuck around for five. and now i've never been so unsure of you. who you are, what you're doing. i've almost lost all hope and faith in us, or you. mostly you. because i'm always the one hanging on by your thread. i'm afraid that this is over for good, and you couldn't even tell me why. i feel like you're lying, leaving and moving on. but who's going to love you now? i was nothing but good to you. i held you on the highest pedestal. i gave you everything, and the worst part is i still would. i'm a fool. and you know you're fooling me, and i think you might like it. who else have you had under your thumb before? i'm pushing myself through this, but you're already over it. if you don't know what you want, let me tell you what it's not. it's not me. and it's not us. and you threw away everything we had and could have had. i'm trying not to let you control my actions, but even without you it's harder than i though.
and for some god awful reason i smelled you in my room today.
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