oh.

today my mom and i saw marley and me. i told her not to cry because i get awkward when she does. i realized that i never hold back any of my emotions and i probably make people around me feel just as awkward if not more so.

my brother recently told me that i was a "crazy bitch" to you, and that made me feel pretty terrible. i'm sorry. even saying it 24 times in 24 hours isn't enough.

i'm focusing on not falling apart anymore than i already have, but i don't know how much longer that's gonna last.

edit at 1234am. it's too late. i've begun to erupt.