i'll never be happy again.

the weather's getting better by the hour,

i hope it rains there all the time.
and if you ever said you missed me
then don't say you never lied.

the things i've been saying are so offensive and just plain mean that i can't believe they're actually coming out of my mouth. all i want to do is fight. i'm so angry all the time. i have given so many backhanded compliments in the last 48 hours, but when i'm so mad and resentful it's hard to give a shit about who i'm offending. they say you always hurt the ones you love, and i am most definitely doing a good job at that, but so are you. at least i realize what i'm doing, and what i'm capable of doing. you still have no fucking idea. i wish i wasn't a bitch, but clearly that has already spirled out of control.

i wish i wasn't lying when i said i was over the bullshit, because i'm not. my emotions are getting the best of me, which isn't anything new but still sucks nonetheless. i don't know what it's going to take to get through to you seeing as how you have an excuse for everything. you keep trying to bullshit me, to distract me, but it's not working. i may not be over it, but that doesn't mean i can't see straight through it.



i'm a bitch because i keep feeling hurt and it's my only defense. i can't stop it, i can't control it.

BUT YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND ME. EVER.