i'm going to document the last week of my life.
...it has sucked.
last friday, i felt so alone and disgusting. i did however manage to make it to kristyn's house, where we sat at her table and laughed our asses off at her parents and friend. saturday kaitlin and i had our garage sale, which wasn't a complete bust. although she did make twice the amount i did...that's fine. rachel and jon came, and it was good to see them. we rightfully treated ourselves to rita's afterward. i saw the hangover with nick and his friend kyle (who i apparently graduated with..?). it was awesome. i ate pizza, i got sick, the works. my brother had a party that night and i wanted to strangle every screaming giggling little bitch in my house. never again, mark my words. my mom came home from her wildwood trip on sunday. we went to the diner and ran some errands, watched a movie and i took a nap and went for a run. this old guy totally kicked my ass. i regret so much putting off running and working out. monday i did carmen electra's striptease work out, which i've had for no joke three years. i've finally used it. it was fun. laurel came over later, we watched jon and kate plus eight, and obsessed. not an hour after she left i got sick. my entire life came out of me. monday-thursday i was bed ridden, literally. i could not move. i was sobbing. i thought the whole stomach pain/"gastridous" was over. yet ANOTHER doctor, gave me new medicine and they seem to be working. my mom and i went to the bookstore, michaels and the diner (again) last night. i woke up at seven am today for some awful reason. i've been up since then.
(with me being sick, i have lacked in working out which i need the most, but i've done a lot of reading. meh.)
oh, i also quit my job. i'll be working for my aunt this summer. friday i'm taking the kids to keansburg waterpark. i'm excited. before the actual babysitting nanny adventure begins, i AM going to florida to see vinnie for his birthday. i'm leaving june 25th and coming home july 9th. a long time. i know. i really would like to move down there if this is legitmate for him. i've yet to be completely, 100% convinced. i hate, HATE, having to go through the rigamarole of telling people why my boyfriend picked up and moved to florida.
nonetheless, i do have a really good boyfriend along with really good friends. whenever i'm sick, laurel is at my side. for as long as i can remember. whenever i've gotten out of the hospital, or whatever the case may be, she's at my house within the hour. it's good to have dianne call me when i'm in agony, sadly we know each other's situations all too well. having the garage sale with kaitlin was a pick me up for me, she is really my best friend. i really just want the best for my friends and this week i feel like i was a shitty friend because all i really cared about was the burning and stinging in my stomach. but i'm okay now, i hope to god. i hope i can see them tonight and this weekend.
i don't give vinnie enough credit and that really does bother me. i'm sorry. i'm really, REALLY, the luckiest person alive because we're in love in spite of everything we've been through the last year. i love him, and i'm going to marry him. check my livejournals, i said that when i was sixteen too. you know.
WEIRD: my brother graduates high school next thursday. so crazy. cliche but, it DOES make me feel old. my brother totally lived the "high school experience". where as i just decided to get home schooled and mock my entire graduating class.
not much has changed for me there.
obviously things are still bothering me, and trust me i DEFINITELY can complain, so i'm not going to say i can't.
i can't stop listening to the rolling stones. this is my life?
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