the hazards of love.

went on a limb for you,
capsized when i turned twenty two.
did it burn as bad for you?
no bottle serves to soothe my wounds.
do hope i won't learn to make the same mistakes that you would.
make me aware, my only fear, my only hope is letting go.
you're a few years overdue,
i spent them waiting here for you.

watching romantic comedies or romantic movies, or even fairy tales, makes me miss my boyfriend. but at the same time, i still long for that "getting to know you" period. i wish i had shaky nervous hands, different than the worried ones i'm left with now. i forgot what it's like to care about what someone thinks of me. i guess i really shouldn't care.

but after screaming matches and a sore throat, i get vengeful and start wishing it was last august. no one else cares.

i'm weary of my happiness. always.




and when we kissed,
it didn't feel poisonous.
and when you cried,
i dried off your blue eyes.
she smiles at me as she is falling asleep,
says "we've gotta live
the best we know how to."