i should be in bed right now. but my thoughts are racing and my legs are shaking. i'm so wired but my brain is begging for relaxation. i'm so anxious for no apparent reason. i wish i had a job, anything will do til i move. i wish it was halloween so i could dress like an native american princess. i wish i was with vinnie. i wish we could swim in the ocean all day.

i wish i wish i wish.
i just want.

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"To dream that you have to repeat high school, suggests that you are doubting your accomplishments and the goals that you have already completed. You feel that you may not be measuring up to the expectation of others. The dream may occur because some recent situation may have awakened old anxieties and insecurities. "

"To dream that your mate, spouse, or significant other is cheating on you, highlights your insecurities and your fears of being abandoned. Alternatively, you may feel that you are not measuring up to the expectations of others."

yes, that is about right. i am not measuring up to what anyone once thought i would.